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| ok so looking back on this year and on years past, i'd say i got much accomplished.
-i finished molding myself into the person i wanted to be
-i found out what it is really that i want to be doing (int'l relations, maybe poli-sci)
-i got a job
-i made some friends that are def. worth keeping
-learned some more about life
so i remember back in middle school andrew = shy kid with glasses and that huge space between his front teeth. i guess i was very uncomfortable with my appearance, which precluded me from having any social confidence. yes, i was afraid to talk to girls, my lack of graphic design skills and a fast internet connection with which i could use to play internet games made it hard for me to connect with the average asian middle school guy. so what was i? i dont know. i guess had not yet molded what i was, i only knew what it is i wanted to be. i wanted to be a carefree, unshy, person who was okay with himself. CYC really helped me develop confidence in myself, and of course, so did braces. teeth and self-esteem aside, i still had to fix my athletic abilities (which in middle school and part of high school were non-existant). there was a time, in which i played bball with a select group of friends, that whichever team person X was on was considered to be the favorite to win. i developed a desire to be that person X, so i worked hard to make myself a better athlete. im particularly fond of my kobe-mentality that grew from this determination. ill admit im not the best, but if you're playing against me, ill make your duty on offense/defense x10 harder to do. anyways im digressing
so everyone, including my parents, thinks im going to be a pharmacist. yeah, i like pay, but i wont want to do it forever. ill get bored soon, but then what? am i to back to school? unlikely they will accept me. so im in the classic battle of choosing what i want versus choosing whats practical.
this year i got a job, which allowed me to have my own money to spend as i want. this gave me a sense of independence. i am able to buy the clothes i want and the things i like. it did help me learn the value of a dollar, and it did teach me some life-lessons (brown-nosing = path to the top). this year was the first year i actually went out and bought christmas gifts for some people. something i always felt like i should do, but of course, my parents wouldnt approve of the things i bought.
i did meet some people who are pretty cool. some people that i hope will stick with me for the next couple of years. its cool having friends will go off on different paths, this just means that i'll have another thing to look forward to during fall/thanksgiving break next year. i'll be looking forward to how their lives @ college are going. and such. its funny how some of the coolest friends you can have start out as strangers you meet in public.
ok so general lessons of life i learned
1) you have to work for the things you love- the thing(s) im trying to get right now, im putting forth much effort for. desire, for me at least, is key to success. that indian guys father on spellbound was right "what in life is valuable and easy to get? nothing."
2) things take time- i learned this about the same time i learned the above one. patience is a virtue, of course. sometimes you want something you can get, at least for now. always in motion, the future is. im not ruling out any possibility for what the future may hold, so im working myself to be ready for when my window of opportunity does come. i will bide my time for the perfect moment, and seize it when im given the chance.
i dont really have any resolutions, just additional things to do before i die:
-make the famous "Rocky run"
-participate in the battle of my life
-earn a debate trophy, not a plaque
-get her
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| my last thanksgiving that i wont have to drive 3-6 hours home for.
what there was:
-turkey (duh)
-football games
-sleeping
-anticipation for much shopping
what there wasnt:
-sister coming home
-other relatives coming
-in other words, family being family
Maybe i've just been exposed too much to what a perfect thanksgiving ought to be to truly be thankful for what i have. Dont get me wrong, i am thankful for my family. i just wish we were more familial. Maybe, im just being too ungrateful. Or maybe i'm right to wish for that warm feeling you get when you're around multiple family members. i've only been to like.. 1 reunion, and thats when my cousin got married in 9th grade. growing up in this family has showed me alot of things to not do when i have my own family. I guess since my parents were both raised in foreign countries, they just don't understand the customs most people have who live here.
god, what i'd give to be a non-conservative Van de Kamp.
but enough of that
I am thankful for the family I have, and my own life. I'm thankful for the simple things that I have that many people lack. I'm thankful for the people who make me smile and listen to my problems. I'm thankful that I'm able to sit here in my chair and type this entry on a computer. I'm even thankful for fucking-conservatives because without them, I wouldn't look like a liberal.
ramblings of hopeless boy
What's up with you, do you just want to not talk/communicate to me? One moment you act open, then the next you act totally closed. Ok so you dont feel the same way i do, but that doesnt mean you have to ignore me. Maybe you could have given me a sign as to how you truly feel? Or better yet, you could have just told me. Don't get me wrong, i don't hate you, on the contrary i am very much thankful for you. I'm glad I met you, you're clever, humble, friendly, funny, and of course, très belle. I hope I'll still be friends with a spiffy person like you in the future.
the countless times that i wished for you.
Me & Melody's early christmas wish: everyone should be given a chance to prove to someone why they should be together.
alas, i've lost my atlas.
about to go shopping in a few hours.
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| ok well heres how my summer was
sitting at home playing Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic II: Sithlords, first as a light jedi master then as a dark sith marauder. <---- made me want to be a jedi. going to work during the afternoon/evening. playing warcraft 3 with my buddies till the early hours in the morning. i lost out on alot of family time, i wont lie. i think i can count on one hand the number of times i sat down to eat dinner with my family together.
the good thing..... my job allows me to watch movies and load up on junk food. it also provided me with the money to buy all the clothes i bought. i dont know what i would have done without a job this summer. <3 studio movie grill. even though you pay me minimum wage and make me work my ass off, i love you.
i didnt get to do lots of things this summer. fuck, it went by fast. i didnt get to read my book list ( i had a rather respectable list of books i had hoped to read) and learning to cook.
got to goto chicago for whiz quiz national championship. it was fun most def. didnt win first place (all my hours of article hopping on wikipedia went to waste) but at least we qualified ourselves to come back next year. some crazy shit happened there... involving guys and sleeping. talked to this guy name kalpesh, very cool, very interesting to talked to. he made me realize how fortunate i am to be living in plano. had my first taste of alcohol! i sipped some manhatten ice tea, which is nasty btw.
and of course what is summer without CYC?
this was my first year as an a/c and i like to think i did a good job. i made 2 kids cry, but hey its easy to make a 10-11 year old cry. got to meet amazing people as always. most of the people there are quite cool. my campers, ill miss some more than others. i wont lie some of my campers are tough as hell and i really dont miss them at all. my fellow a/cs and c of course i will miss. jessika, steven, serene, robert, stephanie, jonathan. yeah they are wack. i really feel like cyc has been changing me into the person i want to be. i remember 2 years ago when i first went i was the classic silent wall flower. but i like to think i've been changing into a funner, more outgoing person. it was a really good feeling knowing that my campers looked up to me.
after CYC was pretty cool too. party: attempts at BBQ-ing burgers, pushing people into pools, crazy billiard skills that was actually luck in disguise, midnight CTF, crazy ass/disturbing question game, truth/dare/tackle, ihop at 5 45 in the morning, my first ALL NIGHTER! good job andrew!, and more.
ahh yess my last year of plano approaches. time to make some noise and have some fun. i wont see this place for a while after this last year. its been good to me and i feel amazed about how much i've grown and that im going to college in a year. its such a comfort to know that some of my friends are with me as i soon venture off to this new uncharted land. but as for now i shall make the most of this last year, have fun, hopefully do well in ac dec and goto hawaii for nationals.
i just like to dedicate this section to uncle bob ting. although i never really got to know him, i did manage to meet him and his wife in person on some occasions. he has fathered a good son and an amazing daughter. and i know he will be sorely missed. let his body rest in peace and his memory in our hearts.
deuces.
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so i saw this surprisingly hot, blond, emo girl at the rec. she was so young though. so... yeah
this period between february through may seems to go by so fast. i can remember how i was exactly 1 year ago in april. im pretty amazed that in 1 year ill be off to some college yet to be determined and that most of the people i know will go on to lead their own separate lives. it sorta makes me sad, since there, im sure, plenty of people that i have not met yet would like to, or that i dont know better that i'd like to get to know. and soon... summer will be coming up. g
my parents bought a new car, the toyota sienna. for some odd reason, my parents feel like we still need a soccer mom car despite the fact that im about to leave soon for college and that there will only be 2 people in the house then. i doubt ill be driving the mini van. although it is pretty spiffy.
so far, i've had 3 dreams in which i was driving, and i've died in 2 of them. plus, i had the dream that wannie dieeeeeeeeeeeed =(
so like soon, it will be time to study for the ape xams. which ought to be coolio. especially biology. my bio teacher gave everyone in my group a 100 except me, which she gave a 0, on this project we worked on because i wrote the words "skeet skeet skeet" (there was a legit reason behind this). And its funny how i still have a higher average than they do. stupid bitches.
so now that i no longer work, my parents give me money. currently, im saving up for... in this order:
1) clothing
2) next year hc
3) next year prom
4) next year summer trip to some place yet to be determined, hopefully with a friend.
our english movie project... grawr mosher is going to be gone for science fair/hosa
a couple of weeks ago, i got a whiff of this 160 lb black woman's scent at SMG. she said she was wearing
it smells pretty good.
about to goto the alleged hollister outlet store at grapevine in a few hours.
skeet skeet skeet.
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| -edit-
My name:
Who is the love of my life:
Where did we meet:
Take a stab at my middle name:
How long have you known me:
When is the last time that we saw each other:
Do I smoke:
Do I drink:
What was your first impression of upon meeting me/seeing me:
Do I have any siblings:
What's one of my favorite things to do:
Am I funny:
What's my favorite type of music:
What is the best feature about me:
Am I shy or outgoing:
Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:
Do I have any special talents:
Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, ahippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what):
Have you ever hugged me:
Do you miss me...do you think i miss you:
What is my favorite food:
Have you ever had a crush on me:
If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:
What's your favorite memory of me:
Who do I like right now:
What is my worst habit:
If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what is the one thing I would bring?
Are we friends:
Do you want us to be more than friends?
Will you repost this so I can do it for you?
hosa trip was pretty cool. ravi spent nearly 4 hours trying to order a pizza. the school and the city was ghetto. the bathrooms at the school looked like where saw 3 would be filmed.
got to see ailinh and chantal which was fun. though i could use a less de-humanization.
my bridge is about to win in physics. forever. good game noob.
and i recently got hired to SMG which is pretty cool.
spring break is coming up and im going to be home the entire time. call me if you wanna chill.
from ailinh
A - Available? currently
A - Age?: 17
A - Annoyance: hmm nothing really
B - Best Friend?: i dont think i have one... but if i had to pick one, it'd be ailinh
B - Bar: iron
B - Birthday?: January 4
C - Crush(s): none
C - Car: pshh i wish
C - Cat(s): none
D - Pets Names: none
D - Dads Name: allen
D - Dog: none
E - Easiest person to talk to: hmmhm miss do
E - Eggs: runny
E - Email: heyitsandrew03@yahoo.com
F - Favorite color? color doenst exist, except in the mind
F - Food: anything
F - Foreign Slang: errr beeetch!
G - Gummy Bears or Worms: wormssssss.
G - God: of course. .
G - Good Time: summertime
H - Hair Color: black
H - Height: 5 8? 9?
H - Happy: when im with friends or when im all alone.
I - Ice Cream?: all flavors
I - Instrument: well i once played the violin
I - american idol? never watched it.
J - Jewelry: for girls only
J - Job: hopefully at studio movie grill
J - Joke(s): why did the chicken cross the road?
K - Kids: are pretty ugly
K - karate: im a ninja
K - kite: never flew one.
L - Longest Car Ride: to houston
L - Longest Relationship: 2 months
L - Last Person you spoke to on the Phone: mom
M - Milk Flavor: chocolate
M - Mothers Name: mary tan chang
M - Movie Last Watched: date movie
N - Number of Siblings: 1 sister
N - Northern or Southern: north
N - Name: andrew chang
O - ONE WISH?: to be happy
O - One Phobia? losing the people i love
O - Only goal: to be successful and make another person the happiest woman i can make her
P - Parents: thank god for them
P - Part of your appearance that you like best: my appearance as a whole
P - Part of your personality that you like best: humorousity
Q
- Quote: "You have enemies? Good. Because that means you stood up for something sometime in your life". winston churchill
Q - Question for the next person: what is on your mind?
Q - Quick or Slow? both
R - Reason to smile: when i see something pretttttty
R - Reality TV Show: never watch them
R - right or Left: right
S - Song Last Heard: this i promise you
S - Season: summer
S - Sex: male
T - Time you woke up: (;29 am
T - Time Now: 10:11 pm
T - Time for bed: very late tonight
U - Unknown Fact about me: if you dont hate me, then you dont know me well enough
U - Unicorns?: i wonder how they taste.
U - U are a.....? boy
V - Vegetable you hate: ginger root
V - View on Politics: important to keep up with
W- Worst Habits: too many
W- What do you wanna be when you grow up?: pharmacist
W- Where are you traveling to next? home sweet home
Y - Year you were born: 1989
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow? my skin color?
Z - Zoo Animal: cute baby animals because they are tastiest
Z - Zodiac: capricorn
im so confused. the only thing i know is that i dont know what i'd do without you
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